i hate school. i hate the Os to be more exact. im losing the stamina. im so distracted. i just wanna go out. like chill for a week or so. i need my shopping spree. seriously. or i should just ban myself from reading the 7 mags i buy each month. im a mag junkie. i know. i should be spending more time reading chem and bio instead. i know. i should be practicing math qns instead. i know. but its just that.. i don't even know what's my aim. i don't want to be stuck with this kind of mugging. i don't want to go to a jc. i don't even know what i wanna do. i don't wanna be a doctor. neither do i want to be a lawyer. or some accountant. im not even good at anything. not good at science. math. literature. language. sighs. who ever said everybody is talented? i need a motivation in life. i have to stop having the mindset that if i don't get in to a jc or poly, i can just jet off somewhere. sighs. i don't even know if hospitality and tourism is my kinda thing. imagine myself. working all day at the hotel and all. faking that smile. well, perhaps im pretty darn good at smiling all the time. perhaps. was talking to jean today, she's still thinking if jc or poly's her thing. well, seriously, i think she'll definitely be much happier in a poly. and she said i could try apparel design as a 2nd choice. hmmm... funny. emma the deisgner? nah. chatted with kath for awhile. she said i should consider a job as a mag editor, think singapore vogue. hilarious. my english's not even good. sighs. so what if i get into h & t ,management? where do i even go next?


shan't think about all these. life doesn't go as planned anyway. on a brighter note, im looking forward to this weekend. shopping at last. i wanna get another song and kelly dress. and seriously more heels. i have to get that ck jeans skirt. though daphne says the probability that it'll still be there is kinda low. damn. why why why didn't i get it the last time? damn. and daph gave me a mission. lol. check out dkny shoes. was reading the mags yesterday, its like they're all featuring eye makeup. they look so pretty. and the dior pearl lipst. think i'll get one. even though mine's not even halfway finished. gosh. i gotta stop thinking about shopping. 3 MORE DAYS! and im free (:

p.s has anybody watched any movies lately? i seriously need recommendations.