childhood (:

its kinda weird, that these days, i have been thinking alot about my childhood days.
haha.. i miss the times in kindergarten.
was like playing all day and i had my hair braided every single day.
i remember 2 boys who were really funny.
cos they would keep asking me if i liked him better or something.
haha! then i remember one of them giving me a flower.
it was pink in colour. so cute. haha.. but i wonder where he is now?
i love my childhood. my mom and dad used to be out pretty often.
cos my mom used to go to the office,
so i would go down to the playground near my hse,
i was living in a condo last time,
and play on the swing. i looooved it. loads (:
i still do looove the swing now.
if i have my own house in future, i would want a swing there. ((:
then i moved on to primary sch, i also moved hse too..
primary sch was pretty fun too,
i mean.. pri 1 and 2, often skipped rope during recess,
and hopscotch too (: oh! and 5 stones. haha..
i still remember this stall aunty who keeps calling me 'xian hui',
cos she can't pronounce my chinese name correctly, haha..
for ur info, its xuan hui.
well, my dad would fetch me to sch everyday,
and my mom would also pick me up.
i remember joining chinese orchestra in pri 2,
i wonder why i did, haha..
oh! i remember, i wanted to play the gu zhen,
cos i think its damn nice, but somehow i ended up with the erhu.
haha! i remember this really nice chinese teacher, wu lao shi.
but he passed away.. ): he's really really nice ((:
anyway, the sch shifted to the new compound, and it was on the news!
and i remember me being on the news, i was so darn happy.
but i only appeared for like 3 secs. haha..
then i joined loads of crappy lessons in pri sch, like.. calligraphy
i quit my cca when i was in pri 5, cos i didn't really like the erhu. lol.
the people in my class was like super fast! and i was like super slow.
anyway, the teacher praised me cos i was like.. slow and yar. whatever. haha..
i remember doing really silly stuff to trav. oops!
like.. drawing on his green 'cow skin' patterned pencil case.
cos i dun like it. haha.. i drew loads of smileys (:
i guess he still keeps it. haha.. ((:
ooh.. and in pri 5, i remember having to act in some play,
i really didn't want to but the teacher insisted that i did.
it was this samson and delilah play, from the bible...
i was pretty sucky, i know. haha..
was wearing my white long dress (:
i dun really remember the play now. well, not much.
then it was pri 6, i didn't really feel stressful. haha..
i remember putting cedar as a choice cos i liked the uniform.
haha..my family wanted me to go to a girls sch,
well, as usual, they still ferried me around,
i guess they're just scared i'll get tangled up in relationships.
oh wells... my mom's still worried nowadays.
haha.. and on that very year, pri 6, i had to see my mom go through the pain of chemotherapy.
it made me realise how much i love her,
and i didn't want to lose her.
she told me she had the will to live because she wanted to see me get married with some nice guy,
haha.. i didn't want to disappoint her, so i worked hard for my psle, and well, my hard work paid off.
i still do love her alot. as a child, i always got what i wanted.
till now, its still the same.
i miss my childhood days, i miss playing with barbie dolls and all.
i miss watching cartoons all day and going shopping at forum.
i miss how my maid used to braid my hair
i miss the stressless days.
i miss not having to care about how i look and all.
i miss my childhood friends. (:
i miss the swing ((:

i miss my childhood...


[[emma_____*

weee~!
came back from my weekly shopping spree.
well.. it won't be weekly anymore though.
next week, im gonna start mugging like crazy.
anyways, got most of the stuff im suppose to get,
maining stuff from la senza. i just looove that shop.
its so damn nice.
hmmm... well, considering the fact that i wun be spending much in the near future,
i guess today's can like cover for a month. =X
-12 items from la senza
-3 skorts from op
-gwen stefani's album
-OC SEASON 1!
-lovers in paris dvd
-mickey necklace + bracelet from swarovski
-california strawberries

shucks! i forgot to buy the buffer. again! ahhhh!!
i seriously have to write it somewhere. or perhaps,
some kind soul will help me get it? (:

im so screwed. i haven't finished the a math paper.
cos well, i guess i just can't do work after tv.
my mind'll just wander off. and i can't even do simple differentiation!
oh wells, learnt my lesson. (:

oh. about the california strawberries.
im soooo disappointed. really. now i know why people say u pay for the quality.
i would rather pay 10.90 for the korean ones than 4.50 for the cali ones.
cos the korean ones is serioualy much much much ncicer.
the cali ones are just disappointing. ):
should have asked my dad to get them instead. grrr..
at least i know my dad'll get me nice stuff (:

i wanna get shoeeesss! my birkenstock!!!!

anyways,
i <3 DELPHINUS!
they were really great yesterday! so proud of them!! (((((:
they rock! yes! they dooo!
the silver drill cane was superb!
i couldn't see much of the parade, cos well, the guy sitting diagonal to me was just too tall!
well, to be exact, everybody in front of me is. ):
the toy soldiers performance was sooooo cute!!!!
im so proud of delphinus. they did cedar np proud. ((:
they rockk~~! i wanna go back next year. (:
weeeee~~!


[[emma_____*

its been ages since i last blogged! (:
went for a shopping trip yesterday.
cos i haven't been doing so for AGES.
got a blue tee from guess (: with an orange heart at the top right side.
face wash and cleansing oil from fancl.
notebook for xiany
a book, babyji
women's weekly, style, seventeen
pens and pencils
dkny apple perfume + lip balm
thats all (: its pretty satisfying. (:
went to miss sixty though. tried this red tee.
i kinda liked it. but its 122. so decided not to get it.
wanted to get stuff from mango.
but decided not to also. cos mango is just too...
like.. u see it everywhere u go kinda thing.
i still haven't gotten any nice shoes.
): still mourning over the fact that mommy gave my kitten heels away
and now, i can't find it. grrr.. my pink and white ones! ):
and she got herself another of those birkenstock-y sandals.
those with the sequins and gems and stuff. from this shop called lulu.
this shop is COOL. really. the shoes are nice. but they're all so heel-y.
mommy got those green ones. with is so damn nice.
grrr.. i want pink one!!!!!
-gotta go forum to get myself a pink birkenstock
-gotta go delphi orchard to get cherell's pressie + see if there's nice stuff
((:

anyway, i realised that.. after taking over. i've learnt many stuff.
stuff that i would never have known if i wasn't an nco.
trying to find solutions for the squad.
i realised that almost everyday, im learning something new from them.
sigh. im gonna pass out in well.. 3 months time.
i know i'll miss them. but i'll remember them always.
they rock my life. (:

if you learn to forgive and forget, and to accept everyone for who they are, life would be much better.
if you give in a little and give others a chance.
you'll see that sparkle in her.
you'll get to know what u've never known about her before
and then, u'll think.. well, maybe she isn't that bad after all.
nobody is. you just need to give everyone a chance.
put urself in her shoes, how would she feel?

people just need to accept others for who they are and what they are
cos one day, you never know, you may be that 'others',
someone who hopes for acceptance.
people always say that its the inside that matters,
but how many can actually do that?
how many people can not care about appearance?

its hard to find a guy who truly loves you,
accept you for who you are, what you are,
a guy who would do anything for you,
just to make you happy,
just to see that smile of urs.
i guess that chance only comes once,
so if you ever meet someone like that,
don't miss that chance (:

oh wells, i shall stop thinking so much (:


-emmalyne

this is so gross
im in the process of wasting 6 hours of my life
how nice
i feel like pulling everyone's hair out
gosh. im insane. i wanna watch the pacifier. however u spell it
i dun reall give a damn.
i wish i had like a sister or something
grrr..

anyways, on the bright side,
my dad promised me he will get me a new beetle cabriolet.
once i learn how to drive! weee~! he rocks!!
i looove my daddy. loads (:

anyways. im still bored.
i wish i had a kid to play with. lol.
i wish my bro was married with a daughter.
yes. thats it. its sucha perfect plan.
i shall start looking for women.


[[emma_____*

-by cherell (:

i know i should be studying and doing my hw now.
but i just dun want to.
haha. i have heaps of homework today.
e math, 2 exercises
a math, small change
english, outline of essay
study for chinese mini test.
but i just dun feel like doing anything.
i feel so cheated just now. grr..
went to ps then had to rush back to sch.
and realised that the small meeting was only for less than 10 mins.
): i wanted to get cds kaes! and look out for xiany's pressie.
grr.. waste my time only.
but anyway. had loads of fun at swensens. cos we crapped alot.
i realised i always pronounce stuff wrongly. and say them wrongly.
like.. frattened fry.
haha.. lol. i suck at 1)spelling 2) typing 3)speaking
anyways. i hope i can do that everyday. i mean. have lunch with my buddies.
i realised that i truly love them alot. (:
i love u guys!! *muaaacks*
weee~!
even though i get occasionally made fun of. cos they think im bimbotic.
but im not right? yes. please nod ur heads. (: thats right.
well. at least i have brains. wee~! haha.. oh man. im going bonkers.
okies. back to earth. can't wait till 22 april! going canoeing. 1-7 then on 23rd april, 9-2. haha!
loads of fun! (:

ive come to rescue my dying blog.

nothing new for 8 days. i bet u guys missed me. (:

oh wells. i wasn't studying. i was pretty much slacking at usual.
i finally finished the last episode of the 'tian long ba bu' yesterday at exactyle 12.55.
the ending was pretty sad.
woke up at 9 plus in the morn. checked phone. nothing.
went back to bed and slept till 11.
im sucha slacker. i hate school. i dun wanna go.
can i please drop out of school?
i wish i could. i dun wanna go to jc or whatsoever.
its just making life miserable.
monotonous.
it sucks. sigh.
how i wish the next 5 years of my life would pass fast.
then i would be doing something new at least.

im always depressed when im bored.
im been thinking lately...
where will i go when i die?
is there really heaven and hell?
what if. like fong said. when u die, u realised there's no heaven and hell
and u've been cheated for many years of ur life.
and when u die, u just disappear into thin air.
whereupon the soul flew from the body
will that really happen?
i wonder what its like to die.
will there be a next life?
and was there a previous?
i wonder what i was in my previous life.
considering the fact that im so lucky now,
maybe i was really unlucky in my previous life.
thats why im so lucky now.

sometimes. i think i should be contended with what i have.
and not ask for anything more.
so what if i own branded stuff.
it just goes to show that im a materialistic girl
i dun need LVs and dior stuff, do i?
but somehow, when i go to the boutiques,
i wished and hoped i own one of those.
why?

i know i could just tell her i liked this and that.
and she would buy it for me even if it was expensive.
but when she bought stuff for herself.
she would often spend a long time thinking if she should.
i think i have been too selfish. i still am.
they always agreed and gave me what i wanted.
but never once did i give them what they wanted.
i'm such a disappointment.
i promised them time after time that i will do better for my next examinations
but they always end up disappointed.