after that entry, i gave the 'telling my parents about him' part much thought, and i've decided to tell my mom.
she was calm and nice about it, but somehow i just don't feel relieved at all. i thought i would. but it just made me more worried than ever.
mixed feelings. i don't know, i just don't...
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
it just seems to early to just go to bed now, after all its christmas eve! well.. not like it hold much significance as well. sigh.. i've been quite emotional lately, yes from my previous post i guess its pretty obvious.
anyways, i was just online and i wanted to make an xmas card and i suddenly remembered origamic architecture. its something i've been interested in for a long time, but never had the time and effort to get more information about it. its really cool, its difficult to describe it in words, so this is the website : http://www5d.biglobe.ne.jp/~m-uet/ if u do have time, go take a look! its amazing what you can do with just a simple piece of paper. and once you finish a card, you'll just feel so happy anf contented and accomplished. haha its a tedious process but the finished product just makes it all worthwhile. time to head down to kinokuniya to look for some origamic architecture books.
but its not all gloomy for me today. i received my first christmas present today! its a pair of really gorgeous betsey johnson shoes from my boyfriend. well the downside is that its a pair of stilettos with 4-inch high heels. so that doesn't allow me to wear it as often as i would like to. i finally understood the term 'killer heels'. haha. i was just walking for like 10 mins and i was like thinking, how do women survive this? but i totallt adore them. :D oh yes and my second christmas present was from my brother! he got me a 'one republic' album. i've never heard of this boy band before, but they do sound not bad! being in my presents christmasy mood now, i feel like writing down a presents wish list! :D
emma's wish list:
-hotel costes albums 1-5
-origamic architecture book
-house of anli heart-shaped picnic basket bag (which i'm patiently waiting for the shop to bring in)
-enamel bangles ( c.c. skye @ quintessential, colette, or hopefully hermes or tod's XD)
-pair of black jeans ( true religion, 7 for mankind, guess, miss sixty etc?)
-dresses! ( esp the karen millen one. 599 ): )
-shoesssss! ( who can ever get enough shoes?)
-calvin klein + princess tam tam bras ( they look soooo gorgeous)
-watch ( eyeing the marc jacobs or michael kors watch now haha )
-IPL for hair-free legs!
thats all for emma's wishlist. oh its 12.07am now on 25th december. as usual, the lines are jammed and i can't send my christmas wishes to all the people i love.
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
especially to all my friends,
lots of love,
emma (:
anyways, i was just online and i wanted to make an xmas card and i suddenly remembered origamic architecture. its something i've been interested in for a long time, but never had the time and effort to get more information about it. its really cool, its difficult to describe it in words, so this is the website : http://www5d.biglobe.ne.jp/~m-uet/ if u do have time, go take a look! its amazing what you can do with just a simple piece of paper. and once you finish a card, you'll just feel so happy anf contented and accomplished. haha its a tedious process but the finished product just makes it all worthwhile. time to head down to kinokuniya to look for some origamic architecture books.
but its not all gloomy for me today. i received my first christmas present today! its a pair of really gorgeous betsey johnson shoes from my boyfriend. well the downside is that its a pair of stilettos with 4-inch high heels. so that doesn't allow me to wear it as often as i would like to. i finally understood the term 'killer heels'. haha. i was just walking for like 10 mins and i was like thinking, how do women survive this? but i totallt adore them. :D oh yes and my second christmas present was from my brother! he got me a 'one republic' album. i've never heard of this boy band before, but they do sound not bad! being in my presents christmasy mood now, i feel like writing down a presents wish list! :D
emma's wish list:
-hotel costes albums 1-5
-origamic architecture book
-house of anli heart-shaped picnic basket bag (which i'm patiently waiting for the shop to bring in)
-enamel bangles ( c.c. skye @ quintessential, colette, or hopefully hermes or tod's XD)
-pair of black jeans ( true religion, 7 for mankind, guess, miss sixty etc?)
-dresses! ( esp the karen millen one. 599 ): )
-shoesssss! ( who can ever get enough shoes?)
-calvin klein + princess tam tam bras ( they look soooo gorgeous)
-watch ( eyeing the marc jacobs or michael kors watch now haha )
-IPL for hair-free legs!
thats all for emma's wishlist. oh its 12.07am now on 25th december. as usual, the lines are jammed and i can't send my christmas wishes to all the people i love.
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
especially to all my friends,
lots of love,
emma (:
Sunday, December 23, 2007
another day..
i've been feeling quite upset today, i don't know why, maybe its part of my pms process or maybe its just that i haven't been doing much these 2 days and i feel like i'm simply wasting my life away. i mean its the holidays! i just wanna be out and not at home. its just that being stuck at home for those few months just makes me want to go out every single day, just to make up for the loss.
sometimes, i feel that my relationship with my boyfriend seems like some sort of forbidden love. because my parents are unaware of it, and sometimes i just wanna stop lying to them about who i'm going out with, because i feel really bad about it. at the same time, i don't know how to break the news to them that i'm dating someone. i mean my dad will probably freak out and disapprove, because he's the one who said i should only date when i stabilise after starting work (which also means when i'm 30+). i mean yes career is important, and according to my dad's logic, only when i've status and whatsoever will i be able to find better guys. but please, asking me to get married when i'm over 35? thats not possible. after all, i feel that my main goal in life is not to be a successful career woman, but someone who is a successful wife and mother. yes my main goal in life is to get married and have kids and be contented with that. and i'm someone who believes in long term relationships, even if it means dating someone for ten years before marriage. because getting to know a person well enough to devote your whole life to that someone really takes alot of time, and sorry but to me, a year or 2 is just not enough. sigh. well breaking the news to my mom and bro should be less of a challenge as compared to my dad. there are only 2 outcomes i guess, the first is that they meet my boyfriend, and they adore him and therefore allow me to continue my relationship with him, and the second is that they hate him, and forbid me to see him ever again. i really hope the outcome's the first one. because if its the latter, i really don't know what i'd do. suddenly, images from the korean dramatic dramas jsut came to my head. perhaps such scenarios really do happen in real life. well, lets just try to be optimistic.
i realised i'm quite a non-feminist woman. haha i mean i certainly don't believe that women can live without men. i mean men and women are very different creatures physically and otherwise. we are made differently to perform the different tasks and we just have to accept the fact that most men are made to do what they're best at, and women are made to do what we're best at. but, i do believe that we can do what men can do, but perhaps not as well as them. and i do believe that women should know their own rights, and not tolerate any form of discrimination or abuse by men.
okay, this is totally pms. i won't usually write such things. haha. right actually i kinda feel better now after sharing my worries. i'll just try to be optimistic about the future and hope for the best.
sometimes, i feel that my relationship with my boyfriend seems like some sort of forbidden love. because my parents are unaware of it, and sometimes i just wanna stop lying to them about who i'm going out with, because i feel really bad about it. at the same time, i don't know how to break the news to them that i'm dating someone. i mean my dad will probably freak out and disapprove, because he's the one who said i should only date when i stabilise after starting work (which also means when i'm 30+). i mean yes career is important, and according to my dad's logic, only when i've status and whatsoever will i be able to find better guys. but please, asking me to get married when i'm over 35? thats not possible. after all, i feel that my main goal in life is not to be a successful career woman, but someone who is a successful wife and mother. yes my main goal in life is to get married and have kids and be contented with that. and i'm someone who believes in long term relationships, even if it means dating someone for ten years before marriage. because getting to know a person well enough to devote your whole life to that someone really takes alot of time, and sorry but to me, a year or 2 is just not enough. sigh. well breaking the news to my mom and bro should be less of a challenge as compared to my dad. there are only 2 outcomes i guess, the first is that they meet my boyfriend, and they adore him and therefore allow me to continue my relationship with him, and the second is that they hate him, and forbid me to see him ever again. i really hope the outcome's the first one. because if its the latter, i really don't know what i'd do. suddenly, images from the korean dramatic dramas jsut came to my head. perhaps such scenarios really do happen in real life. well, lets just try to be optimistic.
i realised i'm quite a non-feminist woman. haha i mean i certainly don't believe that women can live without men. i mean men and women are very different creatures physically and otherwise. we are made differently to perform the different tasks and we just have to accept the fact that most men are made to do what they're best at, and women are made to do what we're best at. but, i do believe that we can do what men can do, but perhaps not as well as them. and i do believe that women should know their own rights, and not tolerate any form of discrimination or abuse by men.
okay, this is totally pms. i won't usually write such things. haha. right actually i kinda feel better now after sharing my worries. i'll just try to be optimistic about the future and hope for the best.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
hello!
hello! well this year is coming to an end.. it seems really fast! i can't believe the As are over, and so is my junior college life. haha so right now i'm just doing nothing and waiting for my results. so in the meantime, i guess i'm gonna look for a job (which is taking a really really really looooong time), and hopefully do some travelling! thinking of going to bangkok and maybe europe or japan (again!).
talking about japan, the trip to japan was great! oh and my feet were kept warm thanks to kath who got me the ugg boots. really warm! i'll try to upload the photos to my blog soon :D i really like japan and i wanna go back again soon! cos when i went it was like winter so there wasn't much clothing to get, most were like winter wear. and i didn't get to spend much time in tokyo, therefore, not much time to shop as well. haha. so yeah, i wanna go back again!
oh wells i hope i'll be able to update more soon! oh yes, merry christmas and happy holidays!
lots of love,
emma (:
talking about japan, the trip to japan was great! oh and my feet were kept warm thanks to kath who got me the ugg boots. really warm! i'll try to upload the photos to my blog soon :D i really like japan and i wanna go back again soon! cos when i went it was like winter so there wasn't much clothing to get, most were like winter wear. and i didn't get to spend much time in tokyo, therefore, not much time to shop as well. haha. so yeah, i wanna go back again!
oh wells i hope i'll be able to update more soon! oh yes, merry christmas and happy holidays!
lots of love,
emma (:
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