somehow, when i woke up today i just felt really depressed.
i couldn't sleep last night.
i admit im someone's who's so damn insecure.
its horrible.
its really silly to think that way, but i just do.
perhaps we're drifting further apart.
but i still hope we stay together.

on a lighter note, i finally have some rest time for myself. i could finally get my 9 hours of sleep. orientation's over. its not bad. when i first got there i was really pretty pissed with everything. sort of hated everything. i wished i was back in cedar. i still wanna be a cedarian. or perhaps maybe just somewhere else. i missed the cedar cheers, i missed ms leong, i missed jean and fong, i missed my dear partner cherell, i missed 4s, i missed crater. but the ogl's were pretty nice, esp peiying, she was so funny and nice and cheery. PLUS, i had beloved joce with me so its still okay. had games and all, i didn't really talk much to my other group mates. well, im just not a very sociable person u know. got home, darn tired. got some rest.the next few days were pretty okay. hmm. wet games, lectures,mass dance. talking bout mass dance, the dance's really cute. erm. but the partner's not so. i didn't even know his name. abandoned my partner the next day to dance with joce, much better actually. had the o-nite on friday, the first half was not really good, heard that thing you do for like a million times, and time seemed to pass so slowly, but the last part was super. the combo band was great. superb actually. everybody was like so high and all. didn't go for supper with the group, went home instead. i mean, tampines is just a place that i visit like once a year, and the times i go there for the past 16 years of my life are probably just less than 20. bro picked me, went for dinner/supper. was super hungry cos the last thing i ate was like summer peach snapple. i LOVE snapple. well, i guess tpjc isn't that bad after all.

still haven't decided what i want to join-shooting, bowling, guitar ensemble, squash, dragonboat or band.
but i was pretty turned off by the band teacher actually. i guess she is. she was ike asking me if i had musical background and asking me to join cos my cert will look better next time and she was like totally degrading shooting or something. i mean she can like promote band without like telling me the other cca's were bad, right? anyway, she asked me if i was going to stay in tpjc after the 1st 3 months, i just told her 'no'. then she just rolled her eyes and walked away.
i was just being honest right? i mean, i won't stay in tpjc simply because distance really is a problem for me. i don't like waking up early and i don't like being in a almost foreign part of sg.

lectures tmr. sigh. my lectures are only on the first and last period. dammit.