ive come to rescue my dying blog.

nothing new for 8 days. i bet u guys missed me. (:

oh wells. i wasn't studying. i was pretty much slacking at usual.
i finally finished the last episode of the 'tian long ba bu' yesterday at exactyle 12.55.
the ending was pretty sad.
woke up at 9 plus in the morn. checked phone. nothing.
went back to bed and slept till 11.
im sucha slacker. i hate school. i dun wanna go.
can i please drop out of school?
i wish i could. i dun wanna go to jc or whatsoever.
its just making life miserable.
monotonous.
it sucks. sigh.
how i wish the next 5 years of my life would pass fast.
then i would be doing something new at least.

im always depressed when im bored.
im been thinking lately...
where will i go when i die?
is there really heaven and hell?
what if. like fong said. when u die, u realised there's no heaven and hell
and u've been cheated for many years of ur life.
and when u die, u just disappear into thin air.
whereupon the soul flew from the body
will that really happen?
i wonder what its like to die.
will there be a next life?
and was there a previous?
i wonder what i was in my previous life.
considering the fact that im so lucky now,
maybe i was really unlucky in my previous life.
thats why im so lucky now.

sometimes. i think i should be contended with what i have.
and not ask for anything more.
so what if i own branded stuff.
it just goes to show that im a materialistic girl
i dun need LVs and dior stuff, do i?
but somehow, when i go to the boutiques,
i wished and hoped i own one of those.
why?

i know i could just tell her i liked this and that.
and she would buy it for me even if it was expensive.
but when she bought stuff for herself.
she would often spend a long time thinking if she should.
i think i have been too selfish. i still am.
they always agreed and gave me what i wanted.
but never once did i give them what they wanted.
i'm such a disappointment.
i promised them time after time that i will do better for my next examinations
but they always end up disappointed.